Friday, December 16, 2005
yesterdae had a big gigantic worst of all fite wif him..haiyaa..asek gado jer!benci sey!haiz.but i dunnoe..i'm lost..i was wrong actually..siao me..walao..hate myself!of coz i cried..cannot tahan..hate it manx..i didnt mean it dat he same as rizal..wth..it doesnt mean hex same as that moron okae?!of coz i do love him...of coz not referrg to that old guy..duh~kae...he jux asked me "IF...."den my blood bubbling...very very angry..haha..dunnoe y..oi!stop laughing lah..haiz..den aft tat..i jux sae like "just sae watever u wanna sae" wae which!! i didnt realise tat i was being rude!!and the matter became worsen..rabak u...den he saed i'm not faithful to him?!!huh?!dun get it wrong lah..haiz...noone can understand my mood oc...dun talk shit..shit?oh yar..he saed i tok shit...i tok shit?haiz..kae..i reallie reallie dunnoe how to express my feelings!!!help!haiz..and to u,dun blame me if i dunnoe how show my feeling aite..haiz..i dun wan to hear, "....but u talk shit!..."oh lord...i talk shit?shit?shittoz?!i dun wan to talk sweet sweet honey suckle werds...haiz..eurgh!i dunnoe...i hate guys wif sweet sweet werds that can make the iceburg melt..euw!jiwangz?!i hate jiwang okae...coz jiwang is totally kental..err....no offence...i told him dun feel sorie for everythg..n he told me the same..so fine..i dun wan to seek for forgiveness...*actually i was very very guilty at tat time..haiz*suddenly he saed 'sorry'..haiz..but i told myself dun ever sae sorie!!he told me tat he tried to call me but cudnt reach..he called me then he saed he realize his mistakes..at ferst i was like yada yada...didnt noe tat he was serious..haiz..i'm evil dun u tink??oh yar..i didnt sae 'sorie' at all...den put down the fone coz i was reallie freaking tired...but!!i cudnt slp..tinkg bout jux now..so yeah..i called him n apologize..i surrender okae!white flag..hah!i dun wan to fite wif him!!i hate it alot okie??HE'S SWEET AFTERALL...itx true..but I'M SHITTY AFTERALL..i admit..haiz..okae...den now we're okae..i hope itx for long...pray hard2...haiz..wooitz!!i still luv him!i dun tok shit!itx true..only allah noes..=)
todae..my mum allowd me to go out but mux go home b4 her...
wth..
i mux do the chores den i can go out for onli.....1hr?
no nid ah..tido sudah..
but hey!suddenly she change her mind that i cannot go out..
i was like huh?!
i dun wan to argue wif her.....
but!!!i gave her my fuck face..
hurrhurr...
she went out..
ard 30 mins later..
she called me...
bagi org kluar on sundae..
dah rase bersalah la tu..
*grins*
oh my..
i'm sooo freaking bad..
kiez...
i will get jealous wen sumbody gt gerlfrens..
=(
me?nuthg..
i mean..i got lots..
but none of dem is my true fren..
nvm lah..
zul will be my true fren...=)
dunnoe uh..
but..
i wan gurlfren..one or two..malay one uh..
ah..
nvm lah..
jux accept the fact..
i dun deserve to haf malay frens..
haiyoo..
k lor..
update soon or later..
i'm tired..
da....
bang!
talking shits-1:57 PM
