Saturday, December 17, 2005
am i not gud enuf for....?haiz...
i noe tat...
i aint cool..
i aint pretty...
i aint clever...
i aint perfect...
but..haiz...
wanna change my life..
yep..
i promise i wanna change..
well...
i dunnoe...
he saed i tok arrogant..
but maybe he still dun noe the real me..
haiz..
sorry..
who will be rescue me??...
maybe i'm not that gud enuf for him...
maybe....
maybe he dun deserve me...
he deserve sumone else better than me...
prettier than me...
cleverer than me...
more perfect than me...
i guess
this is not for long...
i dunnoe...
but...i dun expect him to be perfect...
noone's perfect ryte?
people dun accept me for being who i am..
i talk shits,arrogant,crap..
act pretty i guess...
i admit,i'm ugly..
he's ryte...
i'm a liar.
liar of myself...
foolish me..
blame myself...
i hate my reflection...
hate my everythg..
but i grateful to ALLAH..
i jux hate myself..dats all...
i cant remember thgs sumtimes...
i jux wanna have
no life....
am i not gud enuf for him?frens?family?
okae...
finally decision....
i wanna change my life...
with no regrets...
dun wan to act pretty...am i?
haiz...
i have to move on...
forget those hurtful thgs...
sumtimes his werds can make me feel so down about myself...
nah..
i dun wan to complain..
will keep it to myself...
itx better to hurt myself than sumbody else...
yeah....
cant believe i am loser..
hey,i will cry every nite...
i jux dunnoe y...
but...
ah..nvm..keep it to myself..=)
don't say you love me
you dont even know me
if you really want me...
you got to give me sometimes....
why cant i be what you need?
....
but i'm nothing so good,no i'm nothing
....
stop fooling around...
if u play me once..
dats it..
i noe the truth...
for hating you i blame myself.
because of you i am afraid.
am i so emotional?
i'm sensitive btw..
noone can tolerate me..
haiz..
oh lord..help me..i'm dying...
talking shits-12:11 PM
